this is THE way --

Okkkkkkk, so lately I've been trying to divert my energy to different stuff just to take my mind off unhealthy, BV shiz. Somehow, it works! YAY!
So, what have I been doing lately? Well, watch a lot of movies (that I've DLed). Not sure of the figures from September (I'll update later), but last October, I watched around 60 movies in a month! Whew! That's something!!
Ok, so apart from watching movies, and listening to Jason Mraz and Incubus, I've also tried to keep up with reading a lot of health and beauty tips... as well as tips about products So, here's one that I'd like to share with you...
You know how we Filipinos have this tendency to not let go of things easily especially when it isn't completely used yet, even if it just ends up in a shelf or in a desk, unused and unwanted?

Sometimes, we buy facial creams that usually end up too creamy or oily in our face that we don't really want. Well, our face has really delicate skin and we can't risk breakouts. So my advice, before throwing that almost unused facial cream, why not use it on your hands, arms, or in your feet? The rest of our body needs moisturizing too, yah know! :) Rather than giving it to your trash bin that we know won't even open it, just use it up somewhere else.

We good?

The night has come to an end. Yes, "An Incubus Tribute Party: If Not Now, When?" has officially, technically, finally ended. And now, it's a different day -- a new day.

Was it a success? Yes. And I thank GOD for that.

So, is this how it feels? It's bittersweet. Thinking about this makes me cry--- sad and happy both at the same time. I don't want this to end. The night was too short and no matter how fucked up and tired I am, I would've wanted to add a lot of moments in this epic night. July 14 will always be a date to remember, from here on. I can't believe i am saying this, but somehow i feel that this date is the most meaningful and memorable Incubus-related moment of my life. It's just a proof that whatever you dream, for as long as you've put your heart into it, you could achieve. Out of my love for the band incubus, me and my friends, yes-- friends, have pulled this off. It was just a blur a few years back, and we weren't even "friends" yet. We were just a bunch of acquaintances, strangers, who happened to like the band. but our passion and love for the music and the band has somehow made all of us closer, bringing us together to do things either just for the random fan-mode or the serious feeling of subconscious self obligation (I mean, things that we feel are part of our humanity). Did I make sense? hehe I hope so... Somehow, I am happy that it is over, eating all my "personal time" (not that I need it, I am very much single so there's a lot of time to spare).

But now, I think I want more, which is the semi-sad part. I wanna do this, THIS. Pull off gigs for charities, not just some gig-"gig" to promote a band, but gigs that the people would actually enjoy. Gigs that are meaningful and for a cause. Gigs that the band would enjoy. Can we have it all for everyone's sake? So there, there it is. My if not now, when? moment. To be honest, before I had a more vague view as to "when?" But now, things have become clearer.

I can't believe that last night has finally come into conclusion after months of planning and preparation (having "real jobs" by day and "fan/dream jobs" in between the "real job). I am happy for a lot of things. But I hope, this isn't the last. I am praying for more. And thus, I would hold on to what my heart remembers about last night, until that day comes when I could move on. I am sad that it's finally over. Seriously. :( But I guess, I have to move forward and think of greater things to do-- and to come. If not now, when?

Warning: this isn't a summary of the event.

So, ganito pala ang feeling? It's bittersweet. Thinking about this makes me cry--- sad and happy both at the same time. I don't want this to end. The night was too short and no matter how fucked up and tired I am, I would've wanted to add a lot of moments in this epic night. July 14 will always be a date to remember, from here on. I can't believe i am saying this, but somehow i feel that this date is the most meaningful and memorable Incubus-related moment of my life. It's just a proof that whatever you dream, for as long as you've put your heart into it, you could achieve. Out of my love for the band incubus, me and my friends, yes-- friends, have pulled this off. it was just a blur a few years back, and we weren't even "friends" yet. We were just a bunch of acquaintances, strangers, who happened to like the band. but our passion and love for the music and the band has somehow made all of us closer, bringing us together to do things either just for the random fan-mode or the serious feeling of subconscious self obligation (I mean, things that we feel are part of our humanity). Did I make sense? hehe I hope so... Somehow, I am happy that it is over, eating all my "personal time" (not that I need it, I am very much single so there's a lot of time to spare). But now, I think I want more, which is the semi-sad part. I wanna do this, THIS. Pull off gigs for charities, not just some gig-"gig" to promote a band, but gigs that the people would actually enjoy. Gigs that are meaningful and for a cause. Gigs that the band would enjoy. Can we have it all for everyone's sake? So there, there it is. My if not now, when? moment. To be honest, before I had a more vague view as to "when?" But now, things have become clearer.
I can't believe that last night has finally came into conclusion after months of planning and preparation (having "real jobs" by day and "fan/dream jobs" in between the "real job). I am happy for a lot of things. But I hope, this isn't the first. I am praying for more. And thus, I would hold to what my heart remembers about last night, until that day comes when I could move on. I am sad that it's finally over. Seriously. :( But I guess, I have to move forward and think of greater things to do-- and to come. If not now, when?

what the F are you thinking? asa ka pa! there is NO WAY. as in NOOOOOOOOOOOO WAYYYYYYYYYYY!!! sayaw ka na lang boogie, atleast un achievable! hahahaha

let's start making one, shall we?

... of places I wanna visit:
Red Rocks, Colorado (L: 06.27 11:42pm +4GMT)

... of things I wanna be good at:
Playing the guitar (L: 06.27 11:42pm +4GMT)
Playing tennis (L: 06.27 11:42pm +4GMT)

... of things I wanna own
A vynil player (L: 06.27 11:42pm +4GMT)
All the CDs of Santana that is of my interest (L: 06.27 11:42pm +4GMT)
A record of Third Eye Blind's older album-- containing the songs of which I am familiar of (L: 07.01 4:48am +4GMT)

... of Artists I wanna see perform LIVE
John Mayer (L: 06.28 12:15am +4GMT)
Jason Mraz (L: 06.28 12:15am +4GMT)

legend:
L - listed

that was the plan -- my plan. it was mine. and now, i am jealous knowing that someone else will do what i've planned for myself. not that i don't want what's gonna happen to me in the next month. for sure it would be priceless, and only i would know how meaningful it would be -- incomparable to other "would've been or could've been" stuff that could be resched. pero un nga, nakakalungkot lang isipin na ung matagal mo ng plan na LAKAD (yes, travel), na mauudlot (timing) sa ngayon at malamang eh matagal pa bago mo matupad, ay gagawin ng iba na dati ay nagtatanung lang sayo.
:(
can't have it all, can i?

I am a whiner. I admit. Is it because I am not really satisfied with what I do? or, with what I have? I don't know for sure.
As we grow older, we are able to reach our goals and dreams little by little. Where does it end? Will it ever end? Maybe. Maybe not. Maybe if we stop dreaming, if we lose hope or, if we die. If we lose hope, we die. Or, is it the other way around? We die, then we lose our hope? It is probably irrelevant by then.
Maybe, if we go chase the wrong dreams, reach the wrong goals, then maybe, that would be the time where we are dissatisfied. Maybe. But where do we go from there? What do we do about it?
Maybe, it is just a phase.
I've always believed that we all have a certain path to go to. It's just a matter of making a choice when we reach a crossroad. Then a new path awaits for us. But somehow, it also defies my other belief, that, what is meant is meant, no matter what you do.
Life, is confusing and mysterious.
Life is always relevant with all the twist.
Maybe, me being unsatisfied right now would lead me into doing things for the best eventually, and in return, would give great rewards. Maybe. Only time will tell.
I just wish right now, I could travel the world as an individual then as a buddy. Or the other way around. Either way, I'd be glad. But then again, it isn't the plan yet. Not yet.

Not really sure where to start...

I've always wanted to edit my "About You" section in my FB account. But I've always had my inhibitions due to several reasons. Reasons such as privacy as well as not to appear to narcissist, to name a few.

Some of you who actually care might be wondering why in the world am I writing about myself here anyway? Well, I must admit, mine is not the most popular blog/site in the world (somehow--i thank God for that!), and next, who are we kidding? We like ourselves somehow, eh?

Okay. So today is the 5th of March, 2011. At 8:59 pm, here in Dubai, I am:

- a lazy person, who at times, loves bumming around and probably rarely gets tired of it.
- a very thrifty and practical person, which I am proud of and at the same time
- someone who knows when or where to splurge due to the fact that i have, lately become,
- a bit superficial, due to the influence of my current environment, and at the same time, admits that it's human nature to be superficial and materialistic which only varies, depending on its means or intensity
- into certain bags which corresponds to the word splurge.
- a bit competitive, but I don't want to appear to be too much of that.

at 9:56 pm, I must say that I really

- love to travel. As of now, I work my ass off seriously hard, trying to do Anger Management at work, just for the sake of earning money. And, when the time comes that I've seriously earned some good cash to keep me stable for a year or two, without working a single day, then I intend to travel the world, well atleast in countries where I am allowed to go, for as long as the money I've saved would keep me sleeping inside a hostel and would feed me atleast once a day.
- am saving up for this 1 bag, plus another bag, or two, which I know isn't really practical, but I'd buy it anyway
- love my friends, no matter what, for as long as they're not off and they don't annoy me. Well, even if they annoy me, I still love them and I know that I'd stick with them, no matter what, even if I am sooooo matampuhin that they don't even know/realize.
- am a big fan of Incubus. Yes, it's been years that I've been following their music. I don't just love them because of their music, their members, or their whole package as a band. The thing that makes me a big fan of Incubus is also due to the fact that it has influenced me, and a lot of people in different ways that has made me discover different things, about how people react to their music, about how I react to different people. I mean, they've drawn people, specifically fans, together. At times, people tend to be competitive of who's a bigger fan etc etc(yeah, I am also one of them). But somehow, I am a fan of Incubus because how they've influenced all of us made us do certain things which contributed to a good childhood (wait, scratch that, i mean, teenage/semi-adulthood) period of my life. Along the way, they've really put great memories in my life. The time I called Leia during their dinner, telling her brother that it was an emergency (phone call), just for him to hand the phone to Leia, so I could tell her that the Drive video was on channel V. The day Lei and I went to NU and befriended Francis Brew because of that Trish who didn't even give us a chance to participate in the Meet and Greet contest. The day we found out that some people successfully stalked Incubus at Westin back in 2004. The way we redeemed ourselves as some of the Best Fans by stalking then at Crowne in 2008. How I've gained great, true friends, who are not afraid to show their love for Incubus, such as Ais, Kathy, Onang, Charm, and the rest of the street team. How I've met new friends in South America and Indonesia because of one common favorite band. All my Incubus experience. ETC ETC ETC
I know that I am not the greatest fan of Incubus, the type of fan who immediately had memorized the lyrics of each song of the band. Or, the type of fan who knows each detail of their whereabouts. I am a fan, because I love most of their lyrics, their songs, how they've desired to be even greater with their passion, how they've influenced me and a lot of people, how they've brought most of us and helped destiny make us friends, and lastly, how they've brought that sense of excitement, like as if I am this high school student all over again, all giddy and freakin out with just the idea of them being here all over again.
- am a bit of a drama queen.
- love to talk, to blog, and those of its alike.
- am not a fan of special attention, unless its flattering.
- like to look and feel good, and not to appear too obvious about liking it :)

And for my hobbies, I love:
- to do yoga
- to watch TV series, movies, and bum around, eat a lot, and talk about it
- to watch sports such as Football, Tennis, and Basketball, especially when people around me are very hyped about it
- to travel (yeah I know, right - I said it again)
- to be redundant
- math :P
- to earn
- and Spanish

and now, I am hungry, I haven't eaten a decent dinner, decent meaning something with rice, and I should be good to go.

9:49 pm, and that's all about me that I could think of, for now.

Maybe I should transfer the Incubus part to a new blog? You think?

And at 9:53 pm, I've realized, how could I miss some of the MOST Important aspects of my life?
The most important reasons of my being are
- my family, whom I love the most. They've always been worried about me, and yet they believe and trust in me and has always been supportive (well, for the most part) of my decisions. They love me and I love them, and they would come 1st in my priorities, no matter what. I miss them the most.
- my one and only God

and one of my best confidante, is Mama Mary, who I know, have always helped me be closer to HIM above and who has helped me pray even more to HIM

It's 10 pm (on the dot), and I should really, start to eat (but since rice is not yet cooked, might as well take a shower :D).

oh and while mentioning this blog to my friend, Jill, by 10:05 pm, I realized that I have to add that:
I am very passionate about MUSIC though I am not good at it (but I know how to sing :P)
and I like art and photography, though I am not good at it too
and from here, I see myself doing some work related to Music and Travel, in the (hopefully) not-so-distant future.
:D

and I never thought that it is a New day to celebrate.

We should start marking our calendars!!!

Got this From Incubus-Online (http://www.incubusview.com/)

Incubus World Tour #6

The bands touring plans are far just starting to come together. As of today we have one confirmed show, at Summersonic Festival in Japan on July 30th w Coldplay amongst others. I think if you live in that Pacific Rim area I think it’s reasonable to assume that Japan will not be the only show the band would play in the region. There will be others and we will announce those as they are confirmed. In addition to the Pacific Rim, I think it’s very likely that the band’s fans in Europe will get ac chance to see the band this summer in some venues that they might not have expected. And finally, for the band’s fans in the US who don’t live in major metro areas I think you will have an opportunity to see the band in your hometowns in 2011. It’s early days but I’ve been spending alot of time lately looking at that calendar anticipating the start of a new album cycle. We will keep you posted. thanks to all the Incubus fans around the world. The band is looking forward to seeing you soon. 

Cheers, 

Ren

Many of us rarely ask ourselves this kind of question. Now is probably the time that this has strike me. I don't get easily annoyed or pissed at situation with friends. But when I do, it just makes me wanna say 'Fuck the hell off, loser!".